What is 'Your' Music???

[panolof]

Hello fellow members 😉

What defines music, your music in particular?
Is it the movies you watch : Lord of the rings - "romantic film music"; pop music on the radio; the country you live in -"architecture, traditions (music in particular) and culture you're exposed to."
If this doesn't make sense to you. Good! Beacuse all experiences influence us in one way or another. Subconsiously, these things affect us.

Primary school
I don't know why i like atonal music, maybe it was genetics , maybe it was the way in which I was bought up.
As a 6 year old, I watched lots of "Courage the cowardly dog" and the other shows on cartoon network.
As a child I read 'Goosebump' novels because of a deep horror desire. I read hundreds of them.
At 10 years old, I watched the 'Blob' and 'Pet Cemetery'.
Horrors were always fun, and never so thrilling that I couldn't watch them.

Music started at 8 years old for me. No sheet music, just note by note, and nails digging into my hand by my 90 year old teacher when I moved my finger to the wrong note. I changed teacher at 10 years old. From 10 to 13 I started piano with a Russian teacher.
What I realise from those years, is that pieces like "Kabalevsky-Novelette" which is slow and sad; and jazzy pieces - suited my playing nicely.

Highschool

Classical music dominated it.
I received a scholarship which forced me to follow the school's classical-music-convention.
At my school, conventional music is anything pre 2000, that's classical music and NOT JAZZ.
So my favourite composer in grade 8 and 9 was Debussy. Grade 10 till grade 12(18 years old) Chopin.

This year - 2016
I started improvising this year, before I met the girl.
I enjoyed improvsing, but it seemed to be another one my sidetracking events in life -basically I though and felt it was going to be short lived. I'm not one for creating solid-habits😂
I met the girl ... Wow, just wow!
It has changed me.
For the better ... Definitely! I'm a changed man.
Exercise everyday, staying healthy everyday, discussing problems everyday, sleeping properly everyday, working on academics everyday ... Things have been good.
Last year, my dad passed away. I couldnt stand being alone, I needed a partner, a girlfriend, someone to hold me close when the world crushed in on me. I stood through that year with my foundations being chopsticks, and the view to the future seemed so hopeless, so pointless. I was collapsing and I didn't care.

This year, things have healed.
I'm passionate about something again. Music is one, life is another, the girl ... Is third.
I'm truly happy and donmt care if things donmt work out. I feel healed inside.
But who knows, I might be even more depressed if the relationship doesn't work out. Maybe that's what holding me together. (... Sorry sidetracked a bit ...)

Now all these factors abovementioned have had an impact on my music. The factors haven't always had a direct impact (for random examples sake: My parents loved and still love death metal, bob marley and Jimi Hendrix. Therefore I love their music as much as they do)
But more often an indirect impact (real example: I listened to Chopin alot, Yiruma alot and atonal music alot. Add the three together --- lyrical atonality 😊)
A taste of my lyrical atonality in an improv entitled "A Romance 'In Time'"
 

"Experience defines all our music."
Now I question you all, what experiences have you had? And do the experiences directly or indirectly affect your music ... Affect your creativity?