Hello. I have played piano for a number of years off and on with no teacher. My biggest problem has always been motivation. I really, really enjoy a piece, so I decide to learn it. I jump into it, sometimes from the beginning, sometimes from the middle, and I usually make a ton a progress with it the first practice session. Then days will go by and I will tell myself, "oh, not today". That continues indefinitely for most pieces, until I get motivation to start another one. My latest entry in this is Chopin's Ballade no. 1, which I adore. This is the most difficult piece that I have attempted, and at my current level I do not think I could play it well, once learned. To my surprise, I am making great progress with it, though it would take much longer than my average piece to "master". Sorry, that is not the point of this post.
The point is, I have so many pieces I want to learn, and I really want to get better at the piano so that one day I can sit down and be satisfied with my skill level and repertoire. The problem is, I struggle and struggle and struggle with finding the motivation to continue. Yes, I know a teacher would be quite helpful for this problem, as they would force me to progress by certain deadlines and whatnot set forth. However, as a student that works, I have no time nor money for a teacher. I am worried though, that soon I might just put piano on hold for a few years, which I really think would be bad for me overall.
I do not want the youth of my life to pass without piano, as I truly love it. Or do I? Considering I never want to bring myself to play and learn much, I guess I don't know. I am sure others in the forum have experienced similar feelings. What are your thoughts?