So I was right! You ARE emotion incarnate!
People hither and thither are talking all intellectual and stuff etc. (don't know if it's an age thing, a personality thing, a gender thing etc. could be a combination of all, I dunno) but always in the end, it's about the emotion.
Beethoven was the Lord of MadnessTM (alternative title Lord of Frankness). His music appealed to me before but sometimes its lack of charm/grace makes me like it less. It depends.
I am angry and confused now, for instance. I should like Beethoven now but then again not all Beethoven expresses impatience/rage.
I just don't like many people or something for some reason. And then I feel guilty about not liking them because I know intellectually that they (well at least some) do like me. And this is why I am shy and/or afraid of people, I guess.
Things are weird.