Something I've been thinking about is the environment in which my early development at the piano occured. There was no internet, access to sheet music was difficult, recordings were expensive to get hold of, videos of people playing the piano practically non existent.The key word I found in all this is my education was very "insulated" from external distractions. It is highly distractive to see a young child play something that would be very difficult for you to do. Seeing the great masters of the piano playing virtuosic repertoire although inspiring can really distract you from your own journey.Because my musical vision was all around what I did only it allowed me to fully appreciate the music I was creating, nothing I did felt unworthy or "too easy compared to..". So a rather paradoxical way to really enjoy your journey in piano is to stop searching it up on the internet too much, insulate yourself and get busy working with what you should be doing.
Enjoy the process of learning. Thirst to learn new things about music, about playing the piano, about listening, about becoming a better musician.Make improvisation a part of your daily practice. You say you like big, dramatic, loud pieces, so practice improvising in that style. You likely have many technique challenges at first, but you will learn a lot by improvising. It will also give you a better appreciation of the technique that needs to be built up in order to make such music. There are easier pieces that fill that aesthetic. Ask your teacher about studying such pieces at your current level.Play through small sections of the big repertoire that you like. Allow yourself to explore a bit. However, do not expect yourself to play these pieces in their entirety just now. Have a glimpse of what you could possibly do in the future if you persist working at the piano.