of course i will post a video of me playing but idk how actually
No one can know for sure if you are being genuine but if we give you the benefit of the doubt it's of course not normal, but more importantly why do you want to ask such questions? Do you think someone will say, bah it's terrible give up! Or if someone says WOW SO AMAZING!!!!! Is it really going to change anything? It just seems odd you want to ask a question like this.
im asking because i wanted to know if this is normal and i wanted to get some motivation or something like that in practising. you just made me realise that it has potencial. it helped a lot and when i heard this word from you i felt soo happy and i was excited. so my point in writing this post is completed.