I have many stories I could tell about being on the receiving end of a solid spanking.
Kind of a catch-22 there.
If you had to be beaten many times, it must not have worked very well. And your punishment was pretty severe, too, so if it was going to work it should have.
Either you didn't deserve it that many times, and it was useless; or you did deserve it, and it didn't help, so it was useless.
I'm sorry. In my view you were abused. If you'd said you were punished once, and never misbehaved again, it might have made sense. But not this way.