COPIED TO THIS MOST APPROPRIATE THREAD FROM STUDENTS' CORNER:
People don't know just how difficult this is. To talk with people who don't understand me. And I don't understand them.
There is a certain member of the forum whom I look up to, a very kind and knowledgeable one... Now I am forbidden to talk to this person, for reasons I can barely put into words. I am not saying it's not my fault. It's hard to explain and I don't know how I'll ever be able to fix myself and be good enough for this person. I had spent weeks thinking about it, until I was frustrated out of my wits and had to take some time out from thinking.
The reason I'm saying it here right now, is because it was just like the time when I was frustrated with my music lessons... I said to my teacher
- What do you expect me to do? Write you a symphony? 
-A person, a teacher or someone in authority asks me to do something, and I can only try my best. But that is never ever good enough for them. I can only do what I can, and say what I know. I am not screwing with you people, I don't have the guts to do so, and I am not pretending to be someone I'm not.
A person wants me to show gratitude or respect, but there are many ways to do so. I show my gratitude and my respect in different ways than most, and end up offending this person. I don't mean to. I never did.
And if that's people's impression of me here, I'm sorry. I'm really very sorry.
Topic: pianostreet apology thread (as suggested by pianowolfi)