“A most important thing in art is sincerity. I am completely open about my thoughts; I loathe posing. I have made my career with a minimum of publicity, and I don’t regret it. I did it for music’s sake, and it gives me pleasure. Over the years we come to understand the cheapness and non-viability of anything that is not genuine and true. The thought of one’s own death creates a feeling of urgency toward the essentials in life and art."--Gerard Souzay
You have my admiration at being able to combine earning a living and your deepest creative drives at all. I could certainly never do it. People who can achieve this compatibility, remain true to themselves and keep their peace of mind seem depressingly rare.
hmmm ... thank you for your posts, Ted and Wolfi. I have this big idea brewing right now that I am not sure I can communicate, but I have to try ... hee hee.There is a lot to all of this, I mean, what I am trying to say comes from years of observation of other individuals in various settings, but I want to try to condense my thoughts to the "results" of those observations, rather than getting caught up in specific points within them. It seems to me that most people who become a kind of bitter in their life are so because they feel that somehow they are missing something in their lives that they are actually entitled to. Whether it be opportunities at various points or perhaps the right kind of recognition for what they are currently doing. There are many details involved in that of course, but perhaps it's those overriding characteristics of a path that make a person become angry or empty regarding their life's occupation (and, I mean 'occupation' in various ways).I think that ultimately, people are seeking some kind of seemingly elusive fulfillment that somehow appears to exist in various places, but once the individual arrives there, they discover it's not actually there, or they feel they never arrive there and are therefore robbed of that fulfillment.Is there truly any kind of direct path to that kind of fulfillment ? Even if a person outwardly reaches what seem to be the upper echelons of success in terms of art or anything that we percieve as humans, or if their life's path went exactly the way that perhaps others may sometimes envy, have they somehow had an easier personal path in discovering a sense of deep fulfillment in life ?If, for example, I had been some kind of recognized child prodigy when I were growing up, and had studied at the best schools with the best teachers throughout my life, and that led to a revered career that at this point in my life were already well underway, would I have asked any fewer questions on this forum or to myself ? Would I have more answers in terms of my purpose and a sense of fulfillment about living ? To me, that is what matters more than anything ; who I am each morning, each moment, each day. What kind of quality my individuality is, in the deepest parts of my soul (AND whether or not I can even feel my soul !!).Part of me feels a little leery of what seem to be dinstinguished careers actually, because I don't want to forget who I am within all of that. But, I realize that I can't assume either way, and that an individual has to keep following some crazy path that is revealed just little by little perhaps, day by day, moment by moment. hee hee ... I guess I have been thinking a bit .Right now, this moment, I think my path is revealing to me steps back to the piano to play some wonderful music .
I was not only bitter with my job, but with life in general. Today words of gratitude can not befit how blessed I was to have that job, how foolish I was, and how ungrateful I was.
My career? I don't think I've ever had one (I'm 44).
What is it that changed your perspective on your job and life, to make you feel that you had been ungrateful before ?
That is a complicated question because there is not a defining moment in which I can answer. It was more a change in perspective over time. I suppose the best place to start would be when I decided to go back to school. At the time working at above mentioned job I was supporting both my wife and two children while living in a mobile home after suffering two lay offs with in three years. My then current job offered me a promotion I had been working for, and it was double what I was initially making. On my way home to tell my wife I realized what should have been a moment of great joy I felt nothing but dread for my new position even with the idea of more money. It was at this point I knew I had a decision to make. I knew with clarity(like none I have ever experinced before) that this was a key point in my life. The day before I could not have even fathomed they idea of returning to school, but this day I knew I had to make the choice. So I went home told my wife I wan not taking the promotion and that I was going back to school. In fact I thought this was going to be the harder part of the day, but she to my surprise was unflinchingly supportive. This was the start.I know this does not completely answer your question but I have run out of time for the moment.
Yes, thank you for this. I guess part of what I am wondering, and meant to ask but for some reason didn't, is what, exactly, do you feel you could have been more grateful for at the time you had your job, but weren't ? You didn't know what you had before, but then you did later after you didn't have it anymore ? But, what was "it," just the fact that you had a job at all ? Anyway, I will look forward to your further response(s) .
Your response is nearly incomprehensible. May I try to clarify this "career thread" problem?A life is only worthy if it is of service to others. Yes? In fact, that is the classical definition of the word "profession," grossly misunderstood and incorrectly applied in these degraded and morally decrepit days. Today, Law, for example, is still defined as a "profession," but it is anything but that. A moral and ethical career is chosen not for its financial gain, but for its service to others. Sounds old-fashioned, doesn't it? Well, that's how far we have strayed from ethical behavior. That is why, globally, we are facing a second major economic depression. If we all chose careers based on their social utility, we would discover a smoothly functioning, humane society. But we don't. We choose on the basis of ego-gratification and financial gain. That's the world we have. That's the world our self-interest has created.Are you happy with your career? Think again.
I am making the assumption your reply was directed to me.
No, I believe it was directed to Karli. General made a similar comment to K in another thread. Her response made sense to me, far from "nearly incomprehensible."
No, I believe it was directed to Karli. General made a similar comment to K in another thread.
Let's see, a very insightful, helpful, sensitive post from general dissaray. No way could that be directed toward lil' ol' me, s/he must just have some kind of wild hair up his you know what, me thinks to myself.
My goodness, unfortunately, as I more or less stated before, I was in awe of you and your post to me. As I directly said, "insightful, helpful" and so on. Would you like me to go on ? I just don't understand how that could be taken as anything but utter sincerity . Do you mean to suggest -- and this is nearly beyond my imagination -- that you were not actually meaning to be insightful and helpful and such ? Wow. That blows my mind, all of them, completely. Should I take back the good karma points I had given you as a result of my misguided perception of your supreme helpfulness ? Consider it done ! Anything to please you, my lord.I wish you could only but hear my voice, so as to better comprehend my message of thanks to you, General General Dissaray. I have approximately 20 minutes until a tidal wave completely engulfs me. Ciao.
(hit a nerve, did I?)
That depeds on whether or not that is what you would like
And your cyber-presence is akin to strong drink, which I pretty much stay away from these days .
and I am at peace with it .
Where I live, the word "career" implies perhaps more of a "big career", like becoming famous, rich and things like that. Whereas in some other countries it might just mean to make a normal living, having a job etc.
Oh, that is interesting to know ! I definitely meant it in a more generic way, per the latter definition you gave. I don't know if that is the confusion for people or not, since their confusion is confusing, cryptic, and unclear for me . If that *was* the problem, maybe your comment has cleared it up, thanks for that .
[The General rests his case and goes off the neighborhood pub to toast Ms. K . . .
In the country that I live in, I have heard of pretzels or peanuts being freely provided at the pub counter. I don't know what it's like where you come from, but my current greatest wish for you is that you may have a public pretzel or peanut with your pub experience.
You can't make this stuff up!
Well to me it was a clear question and it made sense. Where I live, the word "career" implies perhaps more of a "big career", like becoming famous, rich and things like that. Whereas in some other countries it might just mean to make a normal living, having a job etc.