i thought it was pretty obvious that im a circus freak by now. I enjoy being a circus freak. I like moving my hands quickly while ignoring an organized concept.
retro im not saying that you have to be able to do something to give advice on it but...what can you do.
since im prolly not going to be pro at this, i might as well do what i want to do. Virtuosic freak shows leave a greater impact on nonmusicians. whenever i play something slow they just say boring.
Suit yourself. You just won't find much recognition from your musical peers.