Hi danhuyle,
When I record myself playing from memory I trip.
I find that sitting in front to two stereo microphones can be daunting, even when I believe that I know the music. I would actually be less self-conscious in front of a live audience. Doing recording sessions can be challenging at times. But the good news is that with perseverance, one can often end up with a fine recording.
I believe your etude is coming along very well indeed. I've not played it, but I know it's a hard piece to master. Your playing is quite expressive throughout which is important. While a
Chopin etude is a "study", it's also a concert piece. You try to get the most out of it, and succeed. Keep up the good work!
David