Originally written hereI have been looking at this issue from different standpoints and consulting with my colleagues as well, some are professionals and some are in other fields, like engineers.I'm an amateur and have finished this piece last year and recorded. But just now I listened to it and feel totally noisy. Our expectations are always getting higher, isn't it?I have even performed that at our university piano association recital, about 14:30. The audience were very excited since my piece is the Final part of the recital and the piece before my totentanz is a Bach…… But I know that performance is far away from satisfaction, I was rushing and making lots of mistakes. and it has become more of a mental obstacle that prevent me from playing this piece anymore.Anyway, looking forward to your result.
I've had a similar experience and find it hard to play the piece again coz everytime i hear it I keep recalling how I failed to perform it as I envisioned it. Have you tried playing the totentanz again? I've just started playing it again so I can get over that ugly recollection in my life.
Tell me what you think.
OK, here's my theme and first three variations. Tell me what you think.