i study physics, and i believe most of the things up to the big bang (this included) which i believe from then on cannot be explained because this is Gods creation.
What you're stating here is, essentially, a deist philosophy.
"God is the power of first cause, nature is the law, and matter is the subject acted upon." Thomas Payne (a deist proponent)
Deism is philosophy that deals with the discovery of god via Reason, as opposed to most major branches of religion that subscribe to knowledge of god via revelation, i.e. god is revealed to them through various means.
It is interesting that your "conversion" to a belief in god seems to have come about because certain events "revealed" the presence of god to you, but your underlying explanations about god seem to lead more to a reasoned discovery.
btw, none of this is a criticism, simply observation. I firmly believe that the paths to spiritual discovery are as varied as there are people to travel them. Let me talk a little about my own path.
Gods are ideal. They embody the flawless attributes of the facets of human existence. These facets can be as broad as the notions of good and evil or as narrow as the concepts of fertility, war, love, or wisdom. These ideals give people goals to work toward or strive against. Gods exist to provide a foundation in an otherwise chaotic and unfair world and give meaning to our otherwise short and painfully insignificant lives.
When I was young, I was raised to believe in the Christian gods and I was trained to pursue the good teachings embodied in Jesus and to shun the evil influence of Satan. It should be noted, this was not a “ram-it-down-my-throat” kind of upbringing. It simply was a facet of our lives. We went to church. And, I was indoctrinated. (As a side note, I am familiar with the Christian myths that identify Satan as a fallen angel instead of a god, but I believe that most Christian churches treat him more like an embodiment of evil, making him an evil deity by most definitions.)
As I grew, my view slowly shifted from the Christian dyadic to the Deist notion of monotheism. I saw God as a powerful creator that was neither good nor evil and that had no active role in life on earth. This shift was based partly on my inability to perceive any evidence that a supernatural force was affecting my life on earth. Although there were many things that I didn’t (and don’t) understand in the world, none of them directly suggested that there was a magical entity controlling them.
Later, I began to envision gods as nothing more than aspects of myself – the good, the bad, the loving, the warlike, the wise, the impetuous, etc. In other words, I came to the realization that god was simply an anthropomorphic creation.
Eventually, I began to try to remove the abstraction that had been introduced through the incorporation of gods into my life. I accomplished this by carefully examining the gods I knew and trying to identify why I needed them. As I vivisected my gods, I was able to get in touch with myself on a level that had been impossible before. The guidance and reassurance that I had only been able to achieve by communicating with my gods through prayer, I was able to receive from within through careful reflection and mediation.
As I got to know myself better, I found that I no longer needed abstract figures to guide me through life – I had always known everything that my gods did, I just hadn’t been able to get in touch with that knowledge without creating omniscient personalities with whom I could communicate. As I identified the motivations behind the creation of my gods, they lost their power and died.
This path is ongoing. In another 40 years I'm sure the story will have evolved further. At least I hope it does. I would hate to think that I have learned I am going to learn in the spritual realm at the young age of 40.
Jef