snap out of it Db and live your life !! 
I don't know... what kind of life... I'm sorry.
I'll see a psychologist soon, and I bet pianistimo is still praying for me. That reminds me:
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Sorry, pianistimo (when you get back), I did a lot of crazy stuff this month:
1. talked to my teacher
2. approached a young piano prodigy, asked for his autograph and greeted his parents
3. watched a piano concert for free
4. had a fight with mom
5. told mom i want to meet my psychologist and that I'm considering going abroad again
6. started a new piece without telling my teacher
7. hugged everyone in class
8. wrote apologies on this thread and PMd some people
This may affect G-d's work, but I was desperate. Sorry, G-d.